honey at the table

sandpipers

2009-08-09T20:53:00.000-07:00

Once the surf emptied of swimmers, the sandpipers came out to feed on these very small and pale purple shellfish.

They follow the waves in and out, looking for the little bubbles in the sand that show where the shellfish are burrowing back under, after having taken a gulp of seawater to strain for algae.

As the evening grew, either they could see me less or they grew used to me, and would let me get a little closer before they flew off squeaking.

Here is the last trace of the setting sun. Unlike the old saying, "red sun at night is a sailor's delight, red sky at morning, a sailor takes warning," this red sun in fact meant it would be raining when dawn came the next day.

This was the night of the full moon. We'd been hoping to see Jupiter and Mercury, but a low cloud-bank rolled in over the ocean.

Much harder to take a picture of the moon than you'd think. The camera doesn't seem to understand what it is you are trying to focus on, and you have to find something to brace your elbows on to keep your hands steady. This took four attempts to get a clean look at the geography of the surface, but lovely colors all the same.

cape henlopen ferry

2009-08-08T18:56:00.000-07:00

A series of images from the cape henlopen to cape may ferry crossing. In the first, to the left, you can see one of the lighthouses. Unfortunately, a thick fog came in from the sea just after I arrived, and my closer takes of the lighthouses were not salvageable. I did like the pilot boats here, and the coloring of the tanker against the ocean, although these two were slightly blurry. In the fourth, of the berth for the ferry, to the slight left of the center is a concrete tower. That is the actual historic cape henlopen lighthouse. On my very first crossing, there were dolphins, but no such luck this time.

bank of the riverpark 1

2009-07-28T20:40:00.000-07:00

First section of work on a new painting. This will eventually be the marshy bank of a section of the riverpark that I live on, last spring when the crocuses were all in bloom. I was happy enough while painting this afternoon, but now it all seems a bit childish and unrefined.

Mostly this is blocking and the first bottom layer of color. The near black area is the water itself, through which runs a log. The horizon area is currently a bit of a hassle. Instead of a brighter distant horizon, this is supposed to be a clearing in the woods and a far bank of trees. There isn't an actual section of blue sky. But right now it looks more like a field of wheat and pine trees, which isn't the direction in which I want this to go.

river park

2009-07-25T19:02:00.000-07:00

Series of things seen on a run in the river park on which I live. The water is polluted enough that you are forbidden to swim or fish here, and I have never seen many water birds. There are deer though, as you will see below, some fish and some turtles. These were all taken with my cell phone camera, so they are not very sharp.

The river park was a very old canal, and there are sections of the stone retaining wall which still remain. In some places where the wall has completely fallen, the bank is being eaten away at a good clip. Eventually, in a decade or so, this will all be a broad swamp again.

I had never seen this in seed before, but this is an arrow leaf seed cone. It is the cousin of the skunk cabbage, whose flower I blogged about last year, and also the jack-in-the-pulpit. It doesn't go to seed in the northern States, like New York or Massachusetts, until October, or so the online botanists tell me. Odd considering that I've always observed their spring flowers to bloom only three weeks behind ours.

At first I thought this might be mile-a-minute vine because of its triangular leaves and pale green color, but looking around online, it seems that the infamous m-a-m vine has to have barbed hooks. This vine does not, and does not seem as invasive. So this must be some sort of cousin...

In the northern section of the river park, where it is flatter and there are fewer granite ledges, there are small clearings of these flowers. They are whitish, or else an extremely pale shade of pink, and they attract a swarm of very lively white butterflies, who could not abide my being near them. They had no scent and a very hard stem, which must be why they have survived as wildflowers in civilization.

And this is the fruit of a mayflower. They have large walnut sized white flowers in the spring. Supposedly, if you hide the fruit of the mayflower under your pillow, you will dream of your true love.

I ran right up on two deer before I saw them. At first I only saw the one right by the side of the path, who is only about 20 feet away. I looked around for any others, but didn't see the other deer until this one turned its own head to look at its friend. We looked at each other for a few minutes before they forded the river to the other side. They made a tremendous splash for all their absolute silence in passing through the brush.

Just at the end of the trail by the dam, there are hedges of what I think is feverfew, or Tanacetum parthenium. I am not sure if this stuff grows wild here, or if this has escaped from some one's garden. For all that it is very pretty, it goes largely ignored by the local flying denizens.

they exist

2009-07-19T20:23:00.000-07:00

A visitor to my butterfly bushes....

... is a hummingbird bee, or just "hummer bee." He paid me no mind as long as I just took pictures but got extremely aggressive when I used the flash. Then he would fly at me and collide with my face, even if I had already dropped the camera away. He also took to chasing off the carpenter bees, which is amazing as they can sting and he can't at all. I do not know if he also chased away the small moths, but they did not visit the bush for the few minutes he was there feeding. Or she perhaps. Amazing though how many people tell me they have never heard of or seen one before, and they've lived here all their lives.

fourth

2009-07-05T13:05:00.001-07:00

The Journey

2009-02-01T16:42:00.001-08:00

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice—
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do—
determined to save
the only life you could save. -Mary Oliver

{And the life I can save is mine, not yours.}

Hope for Haiti

2008-12-26T21:24:00.000-08:00

These is some of what my brother and his girlfriend (photographer) have been doing for the NGO Hope for Haiti, working with street kids and schools. Hope for Haiti also gets those free laptops you hear about for kids to come and use, which you can see in the last photograph.

no context

2008-11-15T13:45:00.000-08:00

These are just small pieces of where I live, taken before the leaves fell.

I loved the meeting between leaf and stone here, the advance of the leaves but how they could not help but still contain the stone, in the form of the birdbath, which in itself allowed stone to melt into water.

And here is the contrast of the harsh force of a waxy green and a delicate pink, competing and forever entwined, both hostile and dependant on each other. The contrast made me think of secrets in the past that will not fall away, and also romance inspite of itself.

edgewater

2008-10-04T10:16:00.000-07:00

I crossed over a bridge over a small river, and stopped to take some pictures of the newly autumn sun on the water. The distance to the opposite shore made the shots a bit of a disappointment, and on the way back to the car I found myself open to ducking under the bridge.

Where I found this lovely geometric pattern....

... and some socially conscious graffiti. The whole of the message reads "Emancipate Yourself From Mental Slavery; None But Ourselves Can Free Our Minds." I thought the semi-colon was a nice touch, but I wonder about who wrote it and who it was intended for. Is it read by the people who walk down the path under the bridge to their expensive motorboats tied up at the piers? By the people who come to empty the trash dumpsters and work in the fish restaurant?

D.C. has gained several graffiti artists with other social messages, exhorting the working class to rise up against their oppressors and calling for the troops to come home from Iraq. Are these the same ones, or was someone inspired?

And the graffiti artist's signature is a smiling flower.

man in the forest

2008-03-21T17:55:00.000-07:00

A hard rain last night left branches scattered over the grass and the water as deep as dark. A few days ago I discovered a map that showed how to reach the trail on the other side of the river. I went down to the road and crossed under the concrete dam, and up onto the grassy bank. Brick steps led up and over the top of the waterworks and into the forest. The trees where I usually walk are birch and ash and beech. I can see across from here the trails that I know so much more. The earth is full of slate and rises up to block out the afternoon sun, leaving the earth in shadow.

On this side of the river there is mountain laurel and the remnants of dead oak groves falling into the water. Running juniper covered one rise on the bank like a shawl. Hidden in one corner of the shore is a small sandy shoal, which is a place where running water deposits sediments because a shift in the current forces the water to slow to the point where it can carry the sand no further. The old ashes of a fire and burnt Corona bottles were there. More of those strange flowers. And above the banks and dead oaks themselves rose the high ridge, the hard granite boulders, and gorgeous black tulepos.

Two centuries or three centuries old. Protected no doubt because to fell them would be to shatter and destroy them on the granite forest floor. And they were in bloom with pink flowers the size of your hand, that washed out entire against the light in the sky. Blush on an empty tree.

The open expanse of the river allows the sun to fall on the shore here, where there is a riot of moss, and clusters of deep-rooted and velvet-leafed plantains. A thin grass with a pale pink flower that held it's petals closed against themselves like a mitten holding yellow corn. And clusters of a dark green rounded leaf plant with butter yellow flowers, eager and large as a kiss.

I do not know their names. The prints of dogs I did recognize, from the many sizes of them that passed through. And where the moss or the leaves did not cover the soft earth, the sharp imprints of last night's deer. Fearless, up and down the winding paths, they could be followed through the park, up along the sparking mica trails and then plunging down to the river and out onto the silt to reach the edge of water. Hoof prints you could lay your fingers whole inside.

Small deer so close to the city. Not too small for antlers. And not too small for poachers either. One must have laid in wait, hidden in the fallen dead oak and rustling thorns. Trekked in from the public parking lot. Listened to the clatter of deer hooves coming down the stony ridge. Noble hunter.

He must have stood no taller than I just a week ago. Now his eyes are gone and his open mouth is empty. His hooves remain and are smaller than my hands. His bones also, and even where they are twisted from his carcass, none are broken. No wounded deer who crawled down to the water so far from the road to die. The antlers are all that man took away.

strange flower

2008-03-15T05:37:00.000-07:00

Walked to Trader Joe's through the river park, among the birch whose leaves are the skeletons of the color bronze. All of the rocks in the path make it hard to look up at the world, forcing you to stop when you want to see.

I should not say a river, but a lingering memory of rain.

There are leaves coming and this is the promise of them.

And hidden in the leaves of a dead year, a flower called strange.

post secret

2008-03-04T04:16:00.000-08:00

My birthday present to myself will be to send a secret of my own to the world.

wonder

2008-02-15T13:01:00.000-08:00

over the night, the finest ice crystals fell over the forest. thin blades of grass poked up out of the white cover, and the holly wore white mittens. here the cattails at the edge of a lake lay flattened and battered, a graceful cluster of hollow brown skeletons of a year gone.

a wind continued to blow through the woods where it lifted off the sheer powder from the hollies. the ice crystals were so fine and pure, they became illuminated by the shafts of sunlight, forming a swirling golden path between the trees. you could hear the ice crystals as they crashed violently into each other, a thousand far off bells.

across the forest floor, the green winter life swelled up out of the snow. here is a runner plant whose roots are so connected that you can pull up all by one. tiny and miniature trees leftover from a world of other plants of long ago, holding on as the giants of the newer world sleep.

olympus fashion week

2008-02-10T03:03:00.000-08:00

Although fall colors proved scarce among the tendency towards black and white, bronze made a lovely showing in many of the collections. Along with a brilliant fireball orange. In the first peice, it was lovely to see stripes done in the bronze and the grey, along with the swirl paisley print of the trenchcoat. Following we had a gorgeous green floor length to remind us of the last hard greens of summer. Two wonderfully textured black numbers show a turn towards an inviting personality for the little black number. Followed by that fireball orange where the longer sleeves are truely innovative. A little dusty yellow slip dress allows a girl to play in the past for a night. If you are meeting the winter holidays in a tropic location, a lacey little blue number should get you in the right spirit. While those looking for a dark harvest pint in an Irish bar will swoon for the next green and black skirt matched with jacket. Rounding off the end are two lovely autumn dresses, one the dark orange of the sunset and the other the dark yellow of wheat, both utterly graceful.

fiery furnace

2008-01-28T02:36:00.000-08:00

out last night into the bitter cold i went, to see a few bands play at a music club i had never been to before. such a big adventure for me, since i hate going places alone. especially places to which i have never been. still, there are new year's resolutions to meet and true love will not be found on a computer screen. this is the 9:30 club. i went dressed in my green knit sweater dress and my old green corduroy pattern trenchie, and a chunky cream shell bracelet. talked for a bit with a girl in line who is taking pics for a local music blog. inside i chose an nice oatmeal stout and watched this band from the bar, the opening act: holy fuck.

up the stairs in the club are a series of rafter balconies where there is some area to sit. in order to monitor the crowd, and watch for illegal drug sales, the club employees have stands up here that are like life guard towers at the beach, though done in black wood, where they take turns scanning the crowd. fiery furnace: this indie rock band came on for the second set, and their lead female singer had an interesting furry voice and good rhythm. i spoke with her for a second during the third act, when she was meeting people in the crowd. she was accompanied by her 12 year old son, with whom she had an obvious good and deep relationship. how amazing it must be to have a rocker mom.

here is the title act, the welsh alternative rock band: super furry animals. the lead singer is quite the showman, much in the way of bare nakked ladies from canada. at one point he had a bunch of leek, and at the start of each line of his song, bit off a chunk and tossed the rest to a fan in the audience. one of their best songs was about the loyalty of a golden retriever. they really knew how to earn the adoration of the audience, finding ways for the fans to participate in the music by sound effects and special crowd "waves." as they went into the encore though, i suddenly thought it wise to scoot. and lucky me. by a bare few minutes i caught the last of the public metro trains back to my stop. such a good starry night.

no country for old men

2008-01-26T03:45:00.000-08:00

so rare in these days of extreme profit gouging to find a film that refuses to be a movie. and yet this offering succeeded, giving a vast and event-less landscapes combined with chilling classic western violence. there are no spirits, no gods, no karma, no underlying principles that compel people towards their end(s) beyond their thinking or unthinking choices. and yet it is a moral play.

death exists without pity or appeal, and yet at heart remains capricious. a nagging moral conscious is no more likely to guide you to the right action pride or humility. community eases isolation and invites in evil. age does not give wisdom.

you do need to see this. so often you wish the world to be one way or another, you begin to see people as more good or evil than perhaps they are, more wise or more foolish, and rarely human. you imagine you see the whole life of a person in a chance encounter in a line at the grocery store. but there is clarity in a country stripped of myths, even if it is a place not for old men.

clarendon

2008-01-20T05:14:00.000-08:00

in pools of light, the city gives you only rough contours. lines of brick and spirals of wire are the signs that guide you. the skeletons of factories and lines of cars by parking meters rear up out of the darkness, like an endless crowd of set and hostile faces. then among them you see pairs, hand in hand, lovers on their way from one place of light to another. her long brown hair bounces and you see his breath as he speaks. her long bright scarf and the flash of his watch. her and him. you reach across the darkness and take his hand. you fall into that pool too deep either for the darkness or for the light.

ice storm

2008-01-17T13:28:00.000-08:00

snow.. a most remarkable occurance. first in large fat flakes, as large as candies and sounding like cat's paws on the trees and grass. swiftly though, the line of the storm came north and the snow transformed into frozen rain, cat's running on claws over everything. and then the cold, the real cold entered into every tree and clearing and body. the birds have taken to the wind with their chattering protest, fleeing the early darkness.

secret garden

2008-01-14T03:50:00.000-08:00

My mother teaches elementary school, and every year her class reads "The Secret Garden." She left her copy on the table at her house a few days when I was visiting recently, and since I had never read the book as a child, I picked it up and wandered through it. Strange and gorgeous little gem, and sometimes difficult. The characters sometimes think about each other in ways we no longer do, of course. No one expects to have any masters or servants. Still, we all expect to figure out how we belong to each other. At the end, it's a beautiful message: that by creating beauty you will belong to the world and live forever.

to be read

2008-01-11T06:34:00.000-08:00

a friend introduced me to this little challenge, where the meat of it is to select a list of 12 books that you had always been meaning to get around to reading, and then to commit to reading them over the next year. the books must be older than 6 months and you can't have already read them. the point is to get to some of those classics that make us all more rounded as people.

and my list, without further ado:

1984, by George Orwell
Journey to the End of Night, by Louis-Ferdinand Celine
Don Quixote de la Mancha, by Miguel De Cervantes Saavedra
Hunger, by Knut Hamsun
The Tin Drum, by Gunter Grass
The Old Man and the Sea, by Ernest Hemingway
Midnight's Children, by Salman Rushdie
Independent People, by Halldor Laxness
Blindness, by Jose Saramago
A Thousand Splendid Suns, by Khaled Hosseini
The Road, by Cormac McCarthy
The Virgin Suicides, by Jeffrey Eugenides

the road won the 2007 pulitzer prize and i've read several of his other books, including all the pretty horses. of course i've read other books by hemingway, but the other authors are all new to me.

the friend who introduced me to the reading list challenge asked me yesterday if i thought current efforts to increase reading could be successful. for instance, are there any long term effects of the harry potter mania? will children who didn't usually read then go on to read other books. while i think that there will be some additional exposure to other children's books, i think it might be a few generations before such sparked interest bleeds over into classical literature or into historical nonfiction, genres needed to see a positive change in human society. for all the effort of oprah's book club, for instance, her marginal readership remains far more interested in forms of romance literature that advance a self-destructive society.

before the new year had even begun, i had finished 1984. this book alone should be read in high school, and not for instance wuthering heights. it's depiction of torture and the easy by which the human spirit may be controlled and destroyed is a warning needed for any democracy. now i have moved on to don quixote, whose depiction of self-induced delusions is extremely poignant. you can't help but think of the degree to which we all seek to be don quixote in order to mitigate the dullness of obscurity of our own lives.

bone horse

2008-01-10T07:11:00.000-08:00

wandered through one of the smithsonian museums last weekend. drawn there by a landscape exhibit, but i also wandered through some modern paintings, some abstract exhibits and some folk art. in the abstract galleries, i met this fierce beastie....

new year's resolutions

2008-01-08T09:23:00.000-08:00

last summer i spent a few wonderful days in the countryside in england, so exotic and so recognizable. i promised myself then that i would cease to believe all of the reasons to give up art, or to marginalize it, that i had soaked up over all of these years spent finding a way to survive. so very small are the things that i have managed to do since in order to achieve that, things done for that goal rather than having come from doing other things. here are some photos to remind me of that promise.

these photos were taken at avesbury, england. the tree above is really red in the middle of june. within a few hours, the rain was falling out of these clouds. but while the sun and wind held them off, they were a gorgeous backdrop for the stone circle in the field. what i felt was not a spiritual feeling, standing among them, but a warm human feeling. an expansion of the heart to simply respect the sincerity and hope that bound people together enough to bring a marvel into their world.

Honey at the Table

2008-01-01T06:36:00.000-08:00

It fills you with the soft
essence of vanished flowers, it becomes
a trickle sharp as a hair that you follow
from the honey pot over the table

and out the door and over the ground,
and all the while it thickens,

grows deeper and wilder, edged
with pine boughs and wet boulders,
pawprints of bobcat and bear, until

deep in the forest you
shuffle up some tree, you rip the bark,

you float into and swallow the dripping combs,
bits of the tree, crushed bees - - - a taste
composed of everything lost, in which everything lost is found.

-Mary Oliver